Tuesday, July 21, 2009,1:54 PM

Been a long time since I had the chance to blog.

(:

Bet you guys might just be wondering why ahh. The end of one guy! Haaa. I didn't even write about him here. Goes to show he's pretty insignificant. Anyway, I'm glad my friends are still around, and my events are still coming.

Alot of catching up to do. The twins rovi juju (who's contracted the virus) np guys army guys sec sch guys and primary sch too! Haha. Quite surprising.

Uni is starting in about a bit more than a week... Anxious and partially fed-up. I don't have the mood to go back studying, especially after working a 9-5 job for nearly 4 months... The money is not too bad too. Just that I haven't been spending wisely the past weeks.. Gotta go back working at PP too when I'm schooling. Entirely sad.

NUS. Orientation is on this Thursday I think, along with my medical that's required for admission. Really should've chosen Computing instead of Computer Engineering. It's so broad -.-

Regret regret regret.

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, March 18, 2009,12:06 AM

It's day 4.


I just wished I had no one to account for my actions, but I really don't wanna screw up what I've built up and brought so far.


Weird people throwing glances, familiar smiley faces.


It's not easy.


Yet the idea of the huge mystery makes me all the more fascinated. I guess that's just my nature, has been and will always be, from what I know now at least. Meeting up with my friends, I never knew I could be that conversable and resourceful.


I've changed.


I know it when I look into the mirror and see my bright eyes as compared to '02. The introverted loner faded into the future. I remember how much I told Gwen not to change and the stubborn me who held on to the past so dearly. Now, I don't know which one is better. Sentimental or Carefree.


Beaming. Talking. Joking. Laughing. Grinning. Accomodating.


What was it that made me the me I am now.


The memories, the people, the events. Miracles, accidents or catastrophes. Books and books of words can never match the real situation. Now all that's left is my imagination. Trust can not match my own memories and words, of which nearly all of them are conflicting.


All the more confusing.


Maybe I should stop referring, and explore the past all over again, this time, from a whole new personality.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, March 17, 2009,12:22 AM

It's day 3.

I'm still questioning myself. The interesting facts and stories of my life. Some can get really intriguing. It's like putting back the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle again after taking it apart. I find certain excitement in doing this despite the confusion of it all.

I like the way things are now, only for the part where people mention things which I don't know. I like that I have no need to study any more, and all I have to do is just work and earn my bucks before entering Uni. Poly life is over, coinciding with this event. All I need now is just to meet up with those who were close. Maybe in this chaos, I can find someone who's willing to stay by my side and comfort me, keep me close and take care of me.

Over those years I've grown independent. Family is just so distant. I've never seen my mother. I've never spoken to dad. I've never contacted my brothers. I guess that's how things were and will be from now on still.

If this doesn't get better for some reason, I'll be optimistic. To me it'd just be a sign that God's giving me a second life, and I hope my decision will be respected. The ominous past of mine forgotten, it's probably hope for me. Maybe it's karma. I would say it is. The melancholy of losing some important moments in my prime.

"Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad"

nat*Rockin

Monday, March 16, 2009,12:18 AM

My life is now just a huge question mark.

nat*Rockin

Saturday, March 14, 2009,2:21 AM

I pretended I’m glad you went away

These four walls close in more every day

And I’m dying inside

And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show

The pain is real even if nobody knows

And I’m crying inside

And nobody knows it but me

Why didn’t I say

The things I needed to say?

How could I let my angel get away?

Now my world is just a-tumbling down

I can say it so clearly

But you’re nowhere around

The nights are lonely

The days are so sad

And I just keep thinking about the love that we had

And I’m missing you

And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I’m broken in two

And I’m nobody without someone like you

I’m trembling inside

And nobody knows it but me

I lie awake

It’s a quarter past three

I’m screaming at night

If I thought you’d hear me

Yeah, my heart is calling you

And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get?

You could ask my heart

But like a jigsaw puzzle it’s been torn all apart

A million words couldn’t say

Just how I feel

A million years from now, you know

I’ll be loving you still

The nights are lonely

The days are so sad

And I just keep thinking about the love that we had

And I’m missing you

And nobody knows it but me

No one, no one

But me…

Tomorrow morning, I’m hitting the dusty road

Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go

And I’m gonna unload my heart

And hope you come back to me

Yeah, sad when the nights are lonely

The nights are lonely

The days are so sad

And I just keep thinking about the love that we had

And I’m missing you

And nobody knows it but me

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, March 10, 2009,12:53 AM

Mixed feelings.

Happy:

That I've become someone new. Shall be really honest here.

Thanks Ernest, my ex, for causing me so much misery, for my sleepless nights, for my headaches, so much that it's made me forget about my past, my sad, sad past. Thanks for making me fall in love with cats. Thanks for making me work doubly hard in my project, thanks for my A's I got.

Thanks Lewis, for being the first one to be informed and be there for me in the darkest moment of my life, pulling me through everything, and protecting me from every possibility of me being sad.

Thanks Geraldine, for changing my personality. Making all of us at PP laugh every day, without you there, it'd be so quiet and different; for being the one who's always showing concern (to me) just like my own sister, the sister I never had. You've made me open up my heart, made me the smiley girl, loud, and probably now less introverted than I was before.

Thanks Hippo, thanks for opening up my Eyes, showing me the world and how cruel it might be. The awesome crew you've made using your own ways. The awesome weekends you plan. Buffets, movies, lunches and dinners. Your silent support, and your way that made me mature into the brainy girl I am. From the kiddy me that A.Dimple wasn't fond of, to the woman I now am.

Thanks twins, for the times we had in year one. When we were so close, the sessions we had together were the most enjoyable. The parties we had, the skates we had. Those provided me with the life mine was lacking.

Thanks Daddy, most of all. I don't think I have to name it out. You never left my side. I hope you never will.

Thanks to everyone else, whom I've mentioned before in previous entries.

Sad:

Ernest, for hitting me. For the memories I tried so hard to remember, but now only existent in a book I have to read so very often. For everything I've forgotten because of the trauma to my head. For the time you've taken from me. The worry of losing all my memory again.

For all the relationships I've screwed up. The fact that I never learn at all from my mistakes. And that most of them actually do hate me.

That I have to live in a dump.

My family being so distant, yet not apart. No communication. I'm so jealous of A.Hannah's family, Twins... I wish so much for things to be that way, it could happen, yet I'm scared it might.

For having the need to support myself. Jealousy, Envy. Everyone's affected by it.

_________________________

I'm satisfied, entirely. I believe there's someone up there to make things equal. Maybe because that my life's not that bad. Bad living conditions, however I managed to make myself independent, self sufficient. And I'm proud of my brains, extremely.

I do cry about how unfair things are every now and then, not for more than a minute. I've learnt, putting a limit on crying can prevent horrible things from happening.

But I've also learnt how to approach people. Be direct and open up to them. Some of them reciprocate by doing the same, whereas some just turn off and shut down. Those who've embraced me wouldn't regret doing so, I dare say.

I'm an extremist, in which means I have views and opinions held at the extreme ends. I either hate you or love you.

Now, I love all of you.

nat*Rockin

Monday, March 9, 2009,12:25 AM

It makes people happy without fail.

Once you start it's hard to stop.

It needs two.

I love it.

He knew! (:

It's been long! (Actually not very long...) Truly, I craved for it. Only hope things get better from here on, it'd be fine, just being the same even.

Yup Daddy, happiness is contagious. Thanks for being happy for me. I'm so glad we're best friends.

Anyways, Happy 21st Birthday again Merdy!

nat*Rockin

Friday, March 6, 2009,11:53 PM

Time is going by

So much faster than I

And I’ve started to regret not spending a little with you

Now I’m

Wondering why

I’ve kept this bottled inside

So I’ve started to regret not telling all of it to you

So if I haven’t yet

I’ve gotta let you know

You’re never gonna be alone

From this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go

I won’t let you fall

You’re never gonna be alone

I’ll hold you until the hurt is gone

And now

As long as I can

I’m holding on with both hands

Cuz forever I believe that there’s nothing I could need but you

So if I haven’t yet

I’ve gotta let you know

You’re never gonna be alone

From this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go

I won’t let you fall

When all hope is gone

I know that you can carry on

We’re gonna take the world along

I’ll hold you until the hurt is gone

You gotta live every single day

Like it’s the only one

What if tomorrow never comes

Don’t let it slip away

Could be our only one

You know its only just begun

Every single day

May be our only one

What if tomorrow never comes

Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by

So much faster than I

And I’ve started to regret not telling all of this to you

Your never gonna be alone

From this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go

I won’t let you fall

When all hope is gone

I know that you can carry on

We're gonna take the world along

I’ll hold you until the hurt is gone

I’m gonna be there all the way

I won’t be missing one more day

I’m gonna be there all the way

I won’t be missing one more day

nat*Rockin

Thursday, March 5, 2009,11:04 PM

Thanks Geraldine for the ice cream today (:

Met twin (not plural) to collect the tops for the RSVP event in the day, at Cineleisure Orchard.

Gonna be the last time I ever hit town on a weekday, until another 4 months or so.

Will be working full everyday. Tiring? No. It's just frustrating that I get to do Nothing from 3.30 to 6 every day. Maybe I will go borrow some new language books and brush up on my programming.

Right now, I'm patiently camping beside my phone.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, March 3, 2009,10:44 PM

Hort Park was pretty. I can't wait to go again at night just to take a look at the Silver Garden. (With prolly someone special)

The picnic was NOT ruined by the rain. We enjoyed ourselves thoroughly. (I did with the jumpshots) Nostalgic moments brought back to my memory when Meow mention Ah-Tiong. TTB. How come I didn't remember

Was supposed to meet Daddy but we were all tired and it was raining. Wasted, could've gotten my latte...

I might've been too rash regarding certain stuffs, but I like the way things're going. It's been a long time since I tried something like this. And yeah, I'm willing to change, as in not go back to my old ways, when I was some kickass-badass girl.

Can't wait for the weekends. Though I don't have to serve the nation...

nat*Rockin

I realised the past months back in school, I've been too caught up in my long term goals, I forgot about the real me.

I'm deprived of the real me.

The me who yearns to be with my two darling nephews and spend time with them, play with them, and teach them (things that actually make sense). Probably go out with Mommy whom I've always been very nasty to, and harsh with words at.

Hanging out with Daddy won't be that tough since it's holidays and he's free every day. =/ Same goes for colleagues cause I'm now full time at PP. I wanna be a kid again.

I wanna be carried around on shoulders, lifted up in someone's arms, swung around, patted, and hugged to sleep.

It's really nice, just thinking about it. It's even more awesome, knowing it might really happen.

nat*Rockin

Monday, March 2, 2009,1:27 AM

Zouk was fun I thought. Maybe it's just me, cause I like dancing. We opened a bottle of Grey Goose though, on impulse I would say. Had my 'must-have' Gin Tonic and Tequila Lime before that. Was sufficient to get me going.

Twins, Weida, Ben, Bong, Jing Kai, Alph.

Alph had an awesome new piercing. =/

Pictures are on my FB account. Loading it on blogspot's just getting too slow these days.

Oh and I prolly have something for someone now. =/ Went to watch Marley and Me with someone today. Was supposed to watch it with Hip Shupy Mag and a few others but something cropped up. Remember I said I didn't like dogs? Maybe I'll have a second thought about it. I <3 cuddling up. (:

Starting full time work at PP this morning at 11am by right. But I think I'll pop by to help A.Pat a bit and see how early morning's like at the restaurant. My off day's on Tuesday, and Thursday night. (: Meeting GBTG (Khong n Meow) at Hort Park on Tues for a picnic! Incredibly awesome. And meeting Daddy in the evening for dinner.

Hope I can meet him again over the weekends.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, February 24, 2009,1:29 AM

My best friend is gay. I've always known it just that I couldn't confirm it.

Vince, you're a lucky guy, if you get to see this.

nat*Rockin

It's the boogieman's birthday, honestly, I miss him a bit. Maybe it's just the ride, but yeah, it works.

nat*Rockin

Monday, February 23, 2009,2:49 PM

I've learnt:

1. If you can't play the game like an adult, don't play it.

2. If you got yourself into the game and can't think like an adult, don't blow it.

3. If you're in the game and you blew it, fuck off.

Well most of the times I thought like an adult, and when I didn't, the nice gentleman fucks off :D Anyways, thanks bro for the awesome wheels, so glad I have friends like you guys. The company outing was awesome too! Cept the part where we got stuck in Changi Airport for 15-20 mins cause of me......................... Ooops. :D Hope to have more of these silly, awesome things! Love you guys. I owe Geraldine a Starbucks treat next time, and I owe bro a huge favor, and I owe Kent $5 for supper. YUP.

nat*Rockin

Sunday, February 22, 2009,1:59 AM

And there I was thinking of who to talk to...

I LOVE YOU YIJIA~

(the girl who was born on the same day as me, entered the same primary school, secondary school, and polytechnic as me)

nat*Rockin

Thursday, February 19, 2009,9:45 PM

Shit.

I haven't been studying!!

Die.

Tomorrow's my exams. Haven't touched the book since last night at PP!

-.-

Nat ahhh.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, February 17, 2009,10:29 PM

It's like making a guess, when the only answer is no. (yes)

A Beautiful Mess - Jason Mraz

Oh anyway, there was a joke at work today. I randomly asked Kent and Ah-Boy Jin Hong if they'd prefer clever or pretty girls.

Guess what Kent said.

"Comfortable can already."

Then guess what Deb said.

"Are you gonna sit on her??"

nat*Rockin

I lost my O level cert.

I also kinda lost my guts, which everyone hates.

The former can be gotten back, but not the latter.

I'm becoming such a wimp.

But then once again it's merely affairs of the heart. (I wouldn't say merely...)

But I'm also very distracted by it.

What am I to do?

Settle it before the exams on Friday?

I'll be so flustered.

Forget about it?

Wish I could.

nat*Rockin

Sunday, February 15, 2009,9:49 PM

I just finished the last chocolate strawberry thingy that Deb gave me. It's addictive.

Today's an awesome day. I really never had expected it to turn out like this. Being able to forget about certain unwanted memories and continue on with life like nothing happened. I liked that. But the idea of conversing with someone who might have other feelings (I don't know what) inside, made me sad somehow that I wasn't able to comprehend the situation. Time was well spent, I got the reassurance I needed.

I liked today. Some part of me inside wished there was more time.

Valkyrie with the gang was awesome too. Hip, Kent, Gib, Chun, in order of arrival. Valkyrie was more of a documentary regarding the assination of Hitler, and how Tom Cruise managed to pull off as von Stauffenberg so nicely. Carl's Jr after. Brings back the memories. Geraldine and Yao Feng should be there, then it'd be back to the good ol days.

Really really liked today.

Except for the part where after everything I rashly went to buy a bluetooth headset because I was so fed up with the noise at the bus stop and my own earphones malfunctioning. ): ALOT OF MONEY CAN.

nat*Rockin

nat*Rockin

My heart doesn't ache anymore, it's okay Nat, don't be afraid.

It was just a moment of impulsivity. I'm glad I've realised and gotten over it. There's that feeling of my heart sinking and squeezing itself out again, and the tears flowing out of my tired eyes. On top of that, my head is throbbing and I'm actually moving my head along with the throb.

Downed a few painkillers.

The past week I just wasn't myself. Thinking of trying to change for the better, making up for my wrongings. No that's just not me. I can't look at myself living like that, changing for others, believing in Karma and shit. Heck. I'm reverting back to my old self.

Daddy just told me to make more FRIENDS. Hell... I don't like to socialise. And I have a sharp tongue that shoots bullets into people's brains. I target stupid people and criticize them until everyone else has a bad impression of me, and Daddy knows this best, colleagues as well. No one likes this.

I've been so silly head over heels for someone, I feel like shooting myself. But even before the trigger is released, I can feel the pain. I was in a dilemma, but certain hints are showing and facts unfolding, I think I know which way to go now. The same way I always do when things go wrong: the easy way out, avoiding everything. That's always been my way, and it won't change, in a very long time..though I might regret..

Still chatting with Daddy, looking back at the times when we just started chatting, and why we did so. *Times Like These - Foo Fighters* Really like to thank See Ern and Gabriel now, cause this best friend wouldn't have been made if not for them. And Leo for making me suicidal then. And everything else after that lead to this. Ever since the recent incident, my mind's been going crazy. Fluctuations. Strong urges to do this, and sudden drawbacks. Which explains...

Nothing to look forward to anymore.

nat*Rockin

Saturday, February 14, 2009,1:09 AM

Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

Today's a day of lovely people expressing their love to their loved ones. Love love love. Just wish I could be more expressive too. But ahh. My own mistake.

:D

Happy birthday to my da sao, Kelly, too. Wonder what my da ge got for her. 1 or 2 presents. Hee.

Am looking forward to the day!

nat*Rockin

Friday, February 13, 2009,12:15 AM

Am listening to Love Remains The Same.

Nights in Rodanthe to me is an awesome movie starring Richard Gere and Diane Lane. The song I mentioned made it all the more awesome.

Yeah, and the fate of this couple in the movie did make me cry in the end. Feel like watching it again.

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But, Love remains the same

nat*Rockin

Thursday, February 12, 2009,11:38 PM

Thanks to Joshua, I've now fallen in love with two white stuff.

nat*Rockin

Now tell me, why is it so hard to get over it?

And why is it even harder to fall asleep?

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, February 11, 2009,10:57 PM

I even had the mood for a Hazelnut latte and Boston Nut Brownie at The Coffee Bean, with the most recent issue of 8 Days [on V Day =( ] courtesy of Lewis. Flipping through the pages, I had a million thoughts in my mind regarding certain changes and resolutions I'd like to make after today. In other words, I was sitting alone there pretending to enjoy my mag alone, sipping my latte, licking chocolate off the fork, thinking about my future. I'm beginning to appreciate the time I have solitarily, to reflect on my past actions, to establish future ones.

1. I wanna catch Valkyrie. :D

2. I wanna be a not horrible daughter.

3. I wanna slog like hell before Uni to pay my debts.

4. I wanna be a good friend.

5. I wanna stop being an alcoholic.

6. I wanna love kids. =/

7. I wanna stop being vulgar.

8. I wanna keep fit and maintain my fitness regime ... if there were any to begin with.

9. I wanna make it up to the people I did wrong.

10. I wanna CHANGE.

I really love you guys. And the cookie today is huge. I mean the moon.

nat*Rockin

Can't sleep...

Too anxious about later...

Will anything go wrong?

nat*Rockin

I feel so much better now...

But still so horrible inside.

Just a few more hours till ... the biggest mistake in my life is turned around. Will I survive this ordeal? I just hope my anaemia won't cause me anything.

Anything like my memories being lost again.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, February 10, 2009,7:58 PM

I didn't regret telling him all that... Even though I was semi-drunk.

I realised, I tend to talk more emotionally when I'm in that state, and I'm so much more vunerable to crying over the littlest things.

But I did really wish to see him.

nat*Rockin

Tell me how...

nat*Rockin

Monday, February 2, 2009,11:50 AM

FYP

OMG.

A couple of hours more to the official closure of this sickening part of my poly life. OMG.

Okay not sickening, but lengthy and torturous, especially the case with a pathetic dead partner who doesn't give a fuck about anything at all and deserves to fail however due to extremely nice supervisors who refuse to fail any student does not get his deserved grade, which is a fail. Ass.

Can't wait, seriously.

nat*Rockin

Friday, January 23, 2009,12:00 AM

Many things occurred during the past week, due to privacy, will not be spelt out here.

All I wanna do now, is thank Daddy and Lewis for standing by me. And everyone else who's supporting me in every way they can.

I need all the help I can get to tide past this dark period.

nat*Rockin

Saturday, January 10, 2009,11:59 PM

Guess what I'm looking at now. (Besides the screen, duh)

Ashton playing the walkie-talkie across the room door with my brother. AT THIS TIME.

nat*Rockin

Oh yah, did I mention:

Common Test Results:
CSAA 88 marks
FCS 84 marks

And let me show off a bit can? Both got highest in class. Yay. (But no big deal because... *ask me personally*)

"I don't wanna spend my days reminiscing the times in school, thinking of what I could've done, and what we could've become." Hence, I will take action, like after the final exams. HAAA.

nat*Rockin

Dad just got knocked down by a lorry, couple of hours back. (Like my real dad, not Daddy)

Mom said he's okay.

Seriously, I think my dad's been knocked down by stuff like more than 3 times already (lost count). Now I know it's true, bad men die hard. Not that I hate him or anything, but he's bad, and he's die hard. Broken ribs, something inserted into his leg, something wrong with his liver, stroke... I used to hate him lah, but seeing him all suicidal and stuff I pity him now.

Well he'd better be okay anyways, else I'd be so dead with school work. Would be good if he had to be hospitalised a few days, then I get all the peace I want at home. Do I sound evil? ): Can't be helped, because I truly believe in retribution, and he's getting it big time. But what I don't get is why mom's being brought down as well. Did she do something bad before too? Maybe there were some hidden facts about her... I do recall dad saying something about it...

Shan't care so much. Report is near done except for my software documentation part. Only part of my program and the powerpoint on Germany left to do.

GERMANY. Hell. I hate Hitler.

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, January 7, 2009,10:56 PM

How do you :

1. Prepare for a presentation regarding USBs by tomorrow morning
2. Write a final report on your entire final year project by 5 days
3. Complete your final year project program by 5 days
4. Prepare another presentation on the history of Germany and compare it to the events in Singapore within 6 days.

HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO THAT.

Yes, I believe to a regular being this might be impossible. And it is not such coincidence that you might have landed up in such a situation of being the only interested party in the project group to PASS AND GRADUATE with preferably FLYING COLORS.

Alright.

If you're kind enough and a friend to me, you would choose not to disturb me within these 10 important and decision-making days for me, and provide moral support, quietly.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, January 6, 2009,11:02 PM

The start of a new year: New stresses, new goals, and new people.

*sigh*

My 08 had been thoroughly enjoyed by my 'inner-self', the playful one. Must admit that the past year was extremely sinful for me and therefore FUN. I met so many people, and got to know so much more about my friends. And I realised, maybe it just isn't about me anymore, it's about lives, and what's happening in all of them.

There was this one person I always wanted to know more about, but now it doesn't seem to make sense anymore. He caused me to lose the one guy I thought I'd love and made me open my eyes to the society. Maybe those words were lies to make me impressed, but when I think about the world now as horrible as it is, I begin to believe. Right now all I know is, he was a mistake.

Now I would like to thank my buddies. Esp Daddy for always being there and listening to my rants and accompanying me for dinner and being my kicking bucket and letting me know everything and yah pretty much alot of stuff. BFF! Lewis Lim Ngee Cheng! You are not forgotten. THANK YOU for letting me vomit on your pants and not accepting the packet of milk, yet. I promise I will not forget about the milk. And also Alvin, Daryl, Jonathan, Lawrence, Twins and many more for your companionship, assistance, and fun you have brought for me the past year. Much much much appreciated, beyond words!

Now to talk about recent events. Today I had handed in my Final Report for my dreadful Final Year Project, in which my case not only happens in my final year but actually lasts an entire year. =/ Next Tuesday would be the Final Review, and the following ... Thursday will be the exhibition. After that, would be what most people would call: FREEDOM. Yup. Am entirely looking forward to the end.

I also did something stupid today, shan't tell the world. I had an awkwardly pleasant dream about someone. Really wish I could dream about it again.

See you!

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, December 2, 2008,10:54 AM

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh

Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

nat*Rockin

Monday, December 1, 2008,4:39 PM

Sometimes the only way to please a girl might be to provide her with her material wants.

Mind you, I said sometimes.

J's been asking me stuff online. *Name shall not be exposed due to privacy*

Q: How to please a girl?

A: How the hell would I know.

After a couple of days of thought, I kinda had the answer for you. Maybe it just takes a little moment of silence for you to hear her heart's little whispers. Spend some quality time alone with her in *let's say* a park *maybe Kent Ridge* at night *hopefully clear skies & no mosquitoes*. But first, buy a car you cheapo.

Maybe take her out shopping. Go down to little gift shops or jewelry stores or even eateries. Look at her gestures towards items of interest *to her* and take note. It doesn't always have to be a special occasion for you to buy presents for her.

Okay. I sounded so fucking cliche.

I seriously can't think of any other ways. Start with something simple? Offer to make oreo milkshake for her at her place and screw up, ending up with her showing you the way around. And keep smiling. (: That worked pretty well on myself, but my scenario was I wanted to make it for myself, but the guy ended up making it for me. =/ There's a little chemistry in oreo milkshaking~

But boy, I think the best way is to make friends with her and eventually get her to fall in love with you (like most love songs are nowadays). But eh, you're only interested in pleasing her right?? Simple, just buy her dinner everyday.

xD

nat*Rockin

Friday, November 28, 2008,10:20 PM

Turns out I'm still an INTJ since year 1 when I took the test.

INTJs are strong individualists who seek new angles or novel ways of looking at things. They enjoy coming to new understandings. They tend to be insightful and mentally quick; however, this mental quickness may not always be outwardly apparent to others since they keep a great deal to themselves. They are very determined people who trust their vision of the possibilities, regardless of what others think. They may even be considered the most independent of all of the sixteen personality types. INTJs are at their best in quietly and firmly developing their ideas, theories, and principles.[10]

Hallmark features of the INTJ personality type include independence of thought, strong individualism, creativity, and a desire for efficiency. People with this personality type work best given large amounts of autonomy and creative freedom. They harbor an innate desire to express themselves, that is, to be creative by conceptualizing their own intellectual designs. Analyzing and formulating complex theories are among their greatest strengths. INTJs tend to be well-suited for occupations within academia, research, management, engineering, and law. The key to differentiating the INTJ personality type from the related INTP type is their confidence.[citation needed] They tend to be acutely aware of their knowledge and abilities, as well as their limitations and what they don't know. Thus, they develop a strong confidence in their ability and talents, making them natural leaders.
In forming relationships, INTJs tend to seek out others with similar character traits and ideologies. Agreement on theoretical concepts is an important aspect of their relationships. By nature INTJs tend to be demanding in their expectations, and they approach relationships in a rational manner. As a result, INTJs may not always respond to a naturally occurring infatuation but wait for a mate who better fits their set criteria. People with this personality type tend to be stable, reliable, and dedicated. Harmony in relationships and home life tends to be extremely important to them. They generally withhold strong emotion and do not like to waste time, as they see it, with what they consider irrational social rituals. This, however, may cause non-INTJs to perceive them as distant and reserved. Nevertheless, INTJs are usually very loyal partners who are prepared to commit substantial energy and time into a relationship to make it work.

Quoted off Wiki. (:

nat*Rockin

Hellohello!

So many things happened.

There was Yi Jia's and my birthday celebration at Hard Rock (35 lovely people turned up)

Turns out Amanda and Angela are classmates! And thanks to Amanda for the pics (:

Basically the only good thing that happened to me passed already.

Now it's FYP (again), WISP Presentations, CSAA Presentations & Horrific FCS to study, along with the not so horrible CSAA.

Help?

nat*Rockin

Friday, November 14, 2008,2:44 PM

1. paing soe
2. louisa
3. hong da
4. brandon
5. chein sze
6. bryan
7. wei shan
8. neda
9. wee kiat
10. kenrick
11. tim lam
12. jon chan
13. boon keat
14. horn sau
15. rovi
16. junius
17. joshua
18. josiah
19. angela
20. edmund
21. weida
22. shupi
23. kareen
24. yijia
25. jin hong
26. magdalene
27. meredith
28. hippo
29. gibson
30. chun
31. kent
32. jieming
33. amanda
34. geraldine
35. ben
maj?
pet?
yi fang?
wei xuan?
adam?

:D

nat*Rockin

Thursday, November 13, 2008,12:27 AM

1. paing soe
2. louisa
3. hong da
4. brandon
bryan?
jie ming?
7. wei shan
8. neda
9. wee kiat
10. kenrick
11. tim lam
12. jon chan
13. boon keat
14. horn sau
wei xuan
?adam?
darrell?
15. rovi
16. junius
17. joshua
18. josiah
ben?
19. angela
20. edmund
21. weida
22. geraldine
23. kareen
24. yijia
25. canida
jin hong?
26. magdalene
yi fang?
27. meredith
28. hippo
29. gibson
30. chun
31. kent
maj?
pet?
mandy?

IT'S A GATHERING. IT'S JUST FOR FUN. TO COME OUT AND TALK COCK.

nat*Rockin

Monday, November 10, 2008,11:50 PM

Hi guys, been prolly a million years since I made an entry.

Dido, Snow Patrol and Oasis came up with new albums! Current'y, I'm addicted to Dido's album, with addictive tracks like 'Don't believe in love' and 'Grafton Street'. Check out her website http://www.didomusic.com/gb/home/ for more details. Anyways the album is not due till 17th November worldwide. (However, I've always managed to do sneaky things, and got my hands on it.) I've always been a big fan of her unique voice. (:

Now now, the big thing this week. Well one of the big things was my VPP Review. I'm not sure how badly i fared for that, and I'm not really interested in it anymore because... MY BIRTHDAY'S IN LESS THAN A WEEK. And the celebratory dinner is on Saturday night. I'd actually rather call it a gathering of sorts: Sec school, Poly mates & colleagues will all be present. Wow I actually kind of regret it now asking so many people.

Hmm.

My birthday wish is that everyone'll have fun!

nat*Rockin

I wanna go to bed with arms around me
But wake up on my own
Pretend that I'm still sleeping
Til' you go home

Oh I can't look at you this morning
I should probably have a sign
That says 'Leave right now or quicker'
You've overstayed your time

If I don't believe in love
Nothing will last for me
If I don't believe in love
Nothing is safe for me
When I don't believe in love
You're too close to me
And that's why you have to leave

Maybe I slept peaceful on your shoulder
Your arm warm around my side
But it's different now it's morning
And I can't face your smile

The second that I feel your safe hands
Reaching out for mine
I slip away and out of sight
You've overstayed your time

If I don't believe in love
Nothing is good for me
If I don't believe in love
Nothing will last for me
When I don't believe in love
Nothing is new for me
Nothing is wrong for me
And nothing is real for me

When I don't believe in love
Why do you care for me?
When I don't believe in love
Nothing is real for me
If I don't believe in love
You're getting to close to me
And that's why you have to leave
And that's why you have to leave

If I don't believe in love
If I don't believe in love
If I don't believe in love
Nothing is left for me
If I don't believe in love
You're too good for me

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, October 21, 2008,11:42 PM

The horrible headaches are back, and somehow I think it's affecting the way I think and the memories I have.

I've been getting random images and tunes in my head, several from my childhood days, some of which I can't remember without seeing objects to trigger those memories. I hope it's nothing serious. (But recalling things like cycling on the big ugly red bike when I was 10 and playing Xenogears and listening to the songs really get me worried)

:( Daddy you must help me.

So many things on my mind. Like how I wanna change to be someone better.. (try to at least), and getting past my FYP with an A. Mr Koh's been providing alot of support for me (motivation too!) but somehow I still can't pull myself through.

And work, I think I can't take it much longer.

nat*Rockin

Monday, October 20, 2008,11:41 PM

The next awesome thing up will be my birthday dinner. So many people'll be going and I think it's the first time I'm organising a gathering. (:

So I've made reservations already. But for 30 only. Given the list below I think I'd need more now, say 35?

BUT

Before my birthday comes the dreadful VPP Report Submission. ARGH. I can see my AD flying further and further away from me. :( I've declared to my supervisor Mr Koh that I'm giving up on A already. I just want to secure a pass and concentrate on my modules, FCS, CSAA and my IS modules. If I get a B for FYP and A for the rest I should be able to secure a steady 3.5. NOOOOOOO THATS SO LOW.

*sobs in a corner*

That aside. I've been spending alot of time with a certain someone recently and that's gotten me worried. Worried that I might lose concentration with schoolwork and begin to be lazy about work. I've stopped being so hardcore (working every day after school), and my output's been more than my input ($). And... after that incident I'm not sure if I'm ready to trust again, rather, I'm not sure if I can lose my old self and try and change to be a better girl. A leopard never changes it spots (but it can shed some fur).

How?

nat*Rockin

Thursday, October 9, 2008,12:02 AM

Hi guys! I'm planning to have a birthday dinner (together with someone else's bday xD) at Hard Rock Cafe on the 15th of November, at around 6pm (to meet). It'll be on a Saturday evening so I hope most of you can make it!

Once again,

Venue of dinner : Hard Rock Cafe (Cuscaden Rd, Bef Orchard Rd)

Time: 6pm

Date: 15th November 08 (Saturday)

Invited Parties:

Louisa (c)
Kasinah (c)
Paing Soe (c)
Wei Shan (c)
Brandon (c)
Bryan
Ying Qi (c)?
Wee Kiat (c)
Tim Lam (c)
Horn Sau (c)
Boon Keat (c)
Jie Ming (c)
Pei Ru
Mei Zhen
Hong Da (NS!)
Wei Xuan (c)
Neda (c)
Kenrick (c)
Rovi (c)
Junius (c)
Wei Da (c)
Edmund (c)
Melvin (c)
Peng Yuan
Jo n Jo (c)
Ilena (c)
Angela (exams!)
Geraldine (c)
Kareen (c)
Yi Jia (c)
Canida (c)
Jin Hong (c)
Magdalene (c)
Yao Feng (exams!)
Hippo (NS! but c)
Meredith (c)
Majella & Petrina (known as the fly kite sisters)
Gibson (c)
Chun (c)
Kent (c)

Whoohoo. Thats alot of people right. The '(c)' there are for those who have confirmed with me. Goodie. As for those who's seen this but's not in the list... I'm sure there must be some reason. (Either I really forgot or maybe you're really not invited.............. I don't know man) Some I've deleted cause for some reason they can't make it :( :(

I haven't called to query about making reservations, not very wise right? xD Anyways sincerely hope it'll be fun for everyone, getting to know more people and whoohoo around (:

Yay.

Also, GOOD LUCK TO HIPPO ON HIS ENLISTMENT!

nat*Rockin

Thursday, October 2, 2008,10:41 PM

Yes, expect many things to happen during this period of absence.

Firstly, something that I've been planning for a while but haven't made any moves yet. My birthday! I intend to celebrate it at Hard Rock Cafe, but gotta confirm if the food is halal, for my darling Meow. (: It'll be on 15th November a Saturday. So to all my darling friends...... MAKE YOURSELVES FREE! (if you still count me as a friend........) No presents needed, just pay for your own food, drink, and cab fare! (:

I've had this weird dream about M coming over to my place for a while, saw my dad and ran out of the house. It's beyond weirdness and it's been haunting me for days. Nostalgic, but, SO WRONG.

Da ge's wedding anniversary is coming up! And he's holding a chalet at Chevron's from the 15th to 17th October. Sending out invites to me buddies! There'll be a barbeque on the night of 16th. (:

There's been someone I've been seeing. And I don't know what good is gonna come out of it!

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, September 23, 2008,9:49 PM

I'm infatuated with the forth floor guy.

nat*Rockin

Thanks baby.

So there were several events that happened on September 22. Wai's (I dono how to spell) big day, K's birthday and an ex senior's birthday. My schedule was packed. I had initially intended to be superwoman (the shirt I was wearing that day) ..... finish school earlier around 4 head home to wash up rush down to PP for the pretty dress have K fetch me up to Fort Canning smile and eat at the wedding and scurry back down to Zouk or whichever place they were parrrtying at without Nat the superwoman.

And hell was I sad.

Never had I made a plan for a day and completely followed it, never yet never will. So I swear from now on, I Will Not Plan Anything In My Life.

Speaking of which, I had been asked by V to help with his wedding?? Totally random. We were merely acquaintances and he upon hearing that I have a wedding to attend asked me if I could assist in certain ways for his own. Well I failed miserably simply because he hadn't provided me with a camera. Do not blame me!

As for K, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE. (: I'm sorry I couldn't bring him (you) along cause my mommy would've said something...not that I cared...... Love you all! DON'T TELL ANYONE WHAT I DID PLEASE IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING (though he was hot). Still suffering from a major hangover.

BIRTHDAYS ARE MAKING ME MAAAAD.

There's gonna be N and W and J and J. Haha. ENTIRE LOAD OFF PROJECTS!

Thought of the day: (rather yesterday) How's your wedding gonna be like? Who's your spouse gonna be? Will it be grand, like maybe Swissotel Hyatt Mandarin or Hilton? Will she/he be pretty/handsome? Will everyone turn up? Who's gonna be your emcee and buddies?

I hope mine will not be a chinese dinner. I'm sick of 'em. I like Bernie's wedding, probably the best ever.

nat*Rockin

Monday, September 22, 2008,12:36 AM

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be
The seasons have changed and so have we
There was little we could say and even less that we could do
To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you

We buried our love in the wintery grave
A lump in the snow was all that remained
But we stayed by its side, as the days turned to weeks
And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak

When the spring arrived, we were taken by surprise
When the flows under our feet bled into the sea
And nothing was left for you and me

We're not the same dear and it seems to me
There's nowhere we can go with nothing underneath
Then it saddens me to say what we both knew was true
That the ice was getting thinner under me and you

The ice was getting thinner under me and you

nat*Rockin

Saturday, September 20, 2008,8:17 PM

Do you know how evil Ikea is?

I bet you don't. They shelf up pretty things and label their horribly cheap prices above them. I had my eye on some storage thing there (however the price was missing and I just assumed it was prolly around the same price as the rest beside it), so I decided to take 2 and head to the counter with a couple of other stuff. The outcome is pretty predictable.

I spent a bomb at Ikea.

):

Finally went to swim today, however I'm not entirely satisfied. I wanted very much to skate instead cause the sun was so pretty today. ):

Jan's back for good. Yipee. I think I've fallen back in love with him..... Nah. Not possible HAH. There might be someone else in school, though...

Did I mention my birthday's coming?!?! I'm gonna update my wishlist (to the right of this blog) so you guys don't have to squeeze your brain juices on what to get for me. Whoohoo

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, September 17, 2008,10:28 PM

6 years since Leonard's death.

No mood to do anything today. I had intended to go to school for the talk on entering Uni, but it seems I just laid in bed and zoned out. S'been an entire day. Gwen hasn't called. What does this mean. Has everyone forgotten about me? Or rather, has everyone forgotten about him?...

I hope I'm not assuming too much again. Daddy said it was time to find someone new, someone I could be serious with. Can I? I doubt there's anyone sane and not jaded who'll knock on my door and wash my brains and this silly thinking for me.

You think so too? :(

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, September 16, 2008,10:19 PM

And so I was reading through the news on how the world stocks were freefalling.

Gee man. Why'd I even waste my time on that?

Nonetheless, it got me intrigued on how everything can become turmoil due to the bankruptcy of one bank (not just a regular bank, it's Lehman). Pretty scary eh? Too bad I've only recently read up on it. Just wonder what was all the commotion within that caused its downfall.

AIG's prolly up next. Hope not. Speaking of which... Man Utd lost to Liverpool. I believe there's one sole person to blame (uh-hum). Will Man Utd suffer the same fate to Chelsea? Geez.

My client program's almost perfect, except for the remaining touch-ups on the user interface. I seriously think my work's still pretty amateur despite spending over 5 days (2 to be exact) on it, thanks to Samurai Warriors. Had my important review today worth 20%. Totally informal.

Happy birthday Louisa! This blog post is a day late, but I really enjoyed yesterday, in a way... The only 2 people whom I thought changed a bit was Bryan and Yan Xi. Bryan has long hair and became more emo; Yan Xi evolved. =/ I loved my cookie cookie sundae/double cookie euphoria.

Leonard's death anniversary tomorrow, I doubt it'd be an ordinary day for me. I've gotten over it, but still...

I'm still sad.

nat*Rockin

Monday, September 15, 2008,9:28 AM

It's 28 minutes past 9am and I'm sitting in my lab munching on Famous Amos Chocolate Chip Cookies and sipping my Vitasoy.

So what's up early this morning?

RESULTS!!

To all those whom I lied to about my GPA, sadly, YOU GOT CONNED. 4 POINTS YET AGAIN FOR THIS AWESOME GIRL.

Wheee...

As for next sem, I doubt I can maintain that standard with my FYP PD2 getting more and more screwed up. Good luck, Nat.

nat*Rockin

Sunday, September 14, 2008,9:55 PM

Mixed feelings.

RESULTS TOMORROW AT 9AM.

Smile!

nat*Rockin

I'm not proud to say I've wasted 1 and a half days of this weekend doodling around, only spending the remaining time writing my program which is due... let's see... tomorrow morning.

:(

Friday night I had another rendezvous with him, after the mooncake thing with Daddy Gabriel and Terence. Honestly, I wasn't too proud of myself with all these I'm doing. Didn't really matter anyway now that I'm alone. Heh (x Sped down to East Coast park from my place (took only 14 mins).

Now that's a record.

Thinking about how I spent my Saturday makes me wanna kill myself, so I shall stop.

But I really have to mention this: Naruto Shippuuden's character Sai really reminds me of Gabriel Wong.

HAHA xD

nat*Rockin

Friday, September 12, 2008,11:17 PM

Just when I thought I was at the tip of the ice burg, all the water froze.

Maybe it was a good thing I went back to visit the school. Old faces, make me reminisce about the good ol' times. Not too enjoyable, but greatly missed. Chiang Shu Lee, Foo Wan Yueh, and one more jackass I don't wish to put in. (Uh-hem) As well as old schoolmates, 1 of whom I really looked forward to meeting. Really.

Terence. I had expected something different. But he was still the same. Remember how I used to look at him, and actually now, I quite miss it. I'll prolly end up getting back those weird dreams I used to, about Leo. Speaking of which, it's less than a week till the anniversary...

Gabriel. Daddy said he was inaudible. And this amazing dude was the prom king. I can give such a good description of him, you'll definitely agree. He stands with arms crossed and tilts to one side; He smiles at what you say; He nods. That's about it. Somehow, he reminded me of ...

I wished I could speak more with him.

nat*Rockin

The month of September had always been gloomy.

Over these years numerous friends suggested: Being optimistic's a solution to many. Smile more, stretch your arms, offer your hand, open your eyes, widen your pace. I hear it so often (bet you do too) I swear I can stuff some socks in that fella's mouth.

=/

Kidding.

But those years of 'brainwashing' had worked, I believe. At least it's improved my silly thinking. Just imagine the world as little pieces of ice on water, and we would all be little lamps on those little pieces of ice.

How long are you able to remain stationary? How long can your lamp last before the ice melts? Eventually you'll have to move on to another piece, with your lamp getting warmer each time, and the ice melting faster. Solution? Just keep moving until you're too tired to. There's no iceburg in the world.

What if you collide with another lamp and join up? All the more vulnerable you are, as you begin to melt faster. Choose to be together with more warmth, the faster you'll perish. If anything happens to the other lamp, just move on. Staying on that piece for too long would mean the end of you as well. Do anything to keep yourself burning, only you can determine how much oil you have.

(:

I hope no one's as stupid as to forget that ice melts.

September is no more gloomy. Just, not as sad.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, September 9, 2008,10:17 PM

Munching on me apple now (: It's awesomely sweet, red, juicy and crunchy. (: (: I'm getting pretty high on this awesome stuff.

Had several weird questions I thought of the past week, of which one of them I think would be pretty intriguing if you'd decide to take up the challenge and find out.

"What if all the people in the world were vegetarians?"

(: Give it some thought. Will there be enough supply of vegetables for everyone? Even if you suppose so, would there be enough in the long run? Hahahahhahahaha... Not as if it will happen, with people like me around.

Work was a slog. A group of young men (heh) came by today, one of whom I was quite attracted to (that guy in the blue and white stripes lah). I felt as if he was the fruit of Ryan (ex) and Nicholas (from school) if they mated together. ARGH THAT'S JUST WRONG. Okay okay, if I have the chance I'll snap some shots of them and post it up, then you'll get what I mean.

That again, makes me wonder: Is the world running out of faces? Up till this age for me, I've already ran across 3 pairs of people with similar features. Well that doesn't include identical twins... Is it the accessories on a person that make him look like another? No. It's the exact same features! The jaws, the nose, eyes, hair... Hair doesn't really count anyway but what the heck. Is this a result of evolution? Or that the world is growing? Or has it always been like this.

This is so confusing! Shan't bother anymore. Got another review tomorrow and my C# program to rush. ):

nat*Rockin

"WHAT??NO LAHHH"

Haha. I don't have a boyfriend. Silly questions.

It's really tough to find someone who's not a jerk and gives in to every whim I have. And when I thought I might've gotten a few candidates, they end up being either too... or too... . You know. I believe I do have lots of experiences (to which all ended up pretty badly). So which was the worse? I don't know. Come to think of it, the one I got involved with the married dude seems quite galvanizing now that I recall. Yeah, it's that awesome. But that doesn't count. I only recently found out he's got a kid.

The worst's gotta be Leo. He might've not been an actual boyfriend, but the feeling was there, and it was mutual. How many of you actually get to experience the death of a loved one, the death being so impetuous, so dire. Even now, I still feel much inequity to why someone so loved can be taken away and cause so much catastrophe in my life.

They say, "Time will heal."

But has it? One week and one day more. Then it'll be 6 years since that fateful day. I've never stopped yearning for him to come back.

nat*Rockin

Friday, September 5, 2008,9:19 PM

I've no work tonight.

Really tired though. Finally completed my PIR Motion Detector in school and its 100% functional! Yay. Left school around 3 to meet Daddy at Bugis to buy my LM311 (which is probably the size of your fingernail). Then headed down to a Burmese restaurant that he was supposed to intro me to.

WHOOHOO FREE MEAL. Heh.

Kidding lah. Best friends mah hor. Lol. Just in case you guys are wondering, Daddy's not my real dad it's just a nickname I gave him cause he behaves just like a dad to me. Who is he? Well HE'S MYO PAING SOE. Lol. Despite having officially changed his name to something else, I will Never call him by that. HAH. That's what best friends do. =/ Or rather that's just a lame excuse.

I really hope to have some fun soon. If Mr Bad Man doesn't find me tonight, I'm going Zouk tomorrow.

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, September 3, 2008,11:58 PM

It feels as if it's been a long time since I blogged.

Currently listening to Eminem's Shake That. I really like this number cause it's catchy, not cause of how horny the lyrics are. =/

Shake that ass for me..

Haha.

I've been a bad girl. Been drinking far too much recently. So I'm gonna stop this week! (Yeah right) But the fact that I'm a good girl tonight and not out clubbing means I'm losing stamina. ): Couple of days back a colleague made a mistake opening too many cans of beer, and I ended up drinking some of em. If only every day was like that...

*Looks at belly* Wobbble.

=/ How, I should go shopping for more shirts that make me look skinny. xD

It's tough to juggle awesome night lives and school, esp when it's 8 - 5 every day, 5 times a week. Attended PPP (don't know what it stands for) today, apparently it's to prepare us for entering the huge work life out there. It's man-eat-man, and a total torture. I can't imagine deadlines that you can't extend, and 9 - 5/6, 5 times a week with no holidays. All you get is probably 20 days leave per year. But you get to paid all that. What's gonna happen to my social life man. I want my standard pay to be at least 5k when I reach 25. Mind you, at least. And 1k increase every year. Never too late to set a target.

And now here's an interesting topic, Where's Nat's boyfriend?

I haven't got one. But I got lotsa candidates. I just hope none of them are looking for anything serious cause I'M NOT SERIOUS MYSELF! xD I just wanna have some awesome fun and a good companion to spend a little time with. ): My hopes are truly dashed. Maybe I'll turn to the bad-boy I used to see in the past. Uncovered certain truths about him. Evidently he's already married with a kid. !!!!! I know, don't be shocked. But he's seperated, and quite fun to be with. Wild I mean. Or maybe I'll turn to the good-boy I turned down once before. Or maybe I'll turn to ....... .... I just don't wanna hurt anyone else further and make them hate me in the end. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS. =/ Guys these days are weird. Can't they just take it easy?

Oh bother.

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, August 27, 2008,9:48 AM

http://forums.msdn.microsoft.com/en-US/csharpgeneral/thread/10d8794b-663f-4dcd-9161-71c82d982efb

That's my first post on my new favourite site! =/ (Please note 'favourite' is in italics)

Gosh. I'm going crazy doing my FYP. 5 days a week for 5 weeks, 8am-5pm. That's the worst any poly can drive their students. And yeah, it's supposed to be the holidays.

:(

I'm behind schedule now, and with my weird and weak stomach, things ain't getting any better.

AHHHHHHHHH

nat*Rockin

Friday, August 22, 2008,4:38 PM

THERE'S NO WAY JOSH IS GAY


NOOOOOOOOOOO

nat*Rockin

Thursday, August 21, 2008,11:42 PM

Exams are over. (Rather, Exam is over) Only one paper for me. And hell, it was easy.

So holidays have started...from now till...25th August. Sure thing man. !!

In other words, I've got no holiday. Stupid Ngee Ann and their nonsense FYP VPP thing. I don't even know what VPP stands for!

:( Quite sad that there's no holiday, means I can't work to earn more money.

Anyways, I will be updating my wish list (>>>) on the right. Whoohoo!

And, a very big thank you to Hippo the Alvin (??) and everyone else at PP who kindly allowed me to stay for dinner to study. Yay. It's also thanks to them now that I have this thing called the 'Potato Chip Addiction'. I guess it's pretty understandable. Oh, I do believe in beer bellies now. *Looks below at my own*

nat*Rockin

Saturday, August 16, 2008,4:19 AM

http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/products/mobilephones/overview/c905

This is my future phone.

ITS SO AWESOME.

Ok Ok maybe not. I might just go with the C902 anyways. I did realise I'm kind of broke anways.

nat*Rockin

Friday, August 15, 2008,3:42 AM

I just realised something.

I love dancing!

Found out after last night when I went to Phuture with Daryl, and met a couple of his cute friends. He's an awesome friend! (: Saw Samuel Ryo there too. What a coincidence. And speaking of coincidences, I saw Pui Yoke as well. Cutting my queue at 9pm when it was about my turn. And FUCK, I couldn't get in when those people in front of me did. Those NUS Temasek hall fuckers. I'd swear I'd kick that guy's groin if I see him there again. Oh fuck, angry things aside... I met a couple of cool guys. Nice Daryl sent me home as well. Really thankful. (:

I think I've gotten addicted.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, August 12, 2008,11:38 PM

Oh yah,

I've only been eating a meal a day since 5 days ago.

I SWEAR I'M NOT ANOREXIC. Just very poor. )':

nat*Rockin

Same old dear old.

Nat is back.

Been rushing projects and reports. My world is going crazy. Now that I've finished the SE miniproject, I've gotten rid of a whole load off my shoulder. Well it's also all thanks to Richard who accompanied, taught and corrected all my misconceptions about 'Primary Key Foreign Key'. You must be thinking: WTHeck? Haha. I'm glad I'm over that. Actually, there's still the exam.

Yikes.

Met up with Daryl couple of days back. Been like 2 years? Lol. Hearing his stories just make me wanna skate again. Goinna Zouk tomorrow. Hope I make it past to Thursday man. =/

Hope to see Joshua there too.

Oh and I'm super broke. :( Haven't been working much at all.

If you owe me anything, I think it's time to return. xD

Hmm. If you're thinking of buying a new game console. I SUGGEST YOU DON'T. You never know what evil lies behind that thing. Addictions and withdrawal symptoms, eventually will lead to a you with no emotions whatsoever! =/ Like uh, what you call that, something square thing. Not like it's happened to me or anything, you know. 8) Just a precaution.

Samuel Ryo's back too. So Justin decided to make use of this to invite us all to his performance at the Heeren and Vivo. Really wonder who'll be going for the gathering. And yah, it's this Saturday, along with Speedo's performance at dbl O. Awesome eh?

Seriously cannot wait.

nat*Rockin

Sunday, August 10, 2008,8:29 PM

Really hungry.

Ate like 1 meal yesterday at PP.

And 1 meal today at home. (Mommy bought at the expense of some ear-deafening nags)

*Looks at tummy*

It's getting flatter if I continue on for a couple more days.

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, August 6, 2008,2:17 AM

nat*Rockin

Monday, August 4, 2008,11:46 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY.

My buddy since sec school. Awesome.

nat*Rockin

WHOOHOO.

I JUST FINISHED MY ER PPT.

I'M SUPER HIGH.

PRESENTATION AT 9AM. AND MY HARDWARE'S STILL WITH THE OTHER GROUP WHO'S GONE MIA.

IN OTHER WORDS,

I'M DEAD MEAT.

nat*Rockin

Sunday, August 3, 2008,1:44 AM

Visual Mathematician
Your IQ Score is: 129
You have a strong ability to process visual-spatial and mathematical information. These skills combined with your strengths in logic are what make you a Visual Mathematician. You're able to understand patterns visually and in numbers. That means your mind can create a mental picture for any problem. In addition to that skill, you possess an intelligence that allows you to apply math to that picture, too. That helps you manipulate multiple parts of the picture (or problem) to come up with a solution. You have many skills that are critical to success and problem-solving. Your talents help you understand the "big picture," which is partly why people may turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. You flourish in environments where tasks are clearly defined, and you are a whiz at improving processes and making things more efficient. Your ability to detect patterns and your skills in math and logic, make it natural for you to come up with ideas and theories that simplify processes for everyone. Outside of work, Visual Mathematicians tend to do well at strategic activities like chess. It must be that ability to recognize patterns — both as they are and how they develop. Regardless of how you put your mind to use, you've got a great set of talents. You will be able to envision a clear path and calculate the risks, and more importantly, the rewards, of anything you take on.

nat*Rockin

"Baby, do you want a massage?"

That'll be the first thing I say to my new boyfriend (x

(if i get to have one)

nat*Rockin

Saturday, August 2, 2008,3:44 AM

JUST GOT HOME FROM WORK!

Check out the time.

Last night, I saw S.R Nathan and his wife, Tony Tan and his wife, Mrs Wee Kim Wee and lotsa other VIPs. Teo Chee Hean was supposed to be there, but I didn't see him. George Yeo too.

SUPER TIRED.

And worried about my ER (examiner review) on Monday morning, SE miniproject submission on Tuesday, FIT written test (30%) on Wednesday. Oh someone, save me. My GPA's all relying on the next few days to come.

NO DISTRACTIONS!

nat*Rockin

Friday, August 1, 2008,1:57 AM

Wednesday was awesome (:

The plan was to go clubbing with Daryl Pat, but I honestly didn't feel like, so I tagged along with Speedo to get his dad's car, and in the end Pat couldn't make it either. Haha. So I went skating!

Headed to the park at 6 with Speedo, Josh and Juju. LOL. New nicknames. (x I think Speedo's still the best. Anyways, we all had awesome fun.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, July 29, 2008,12:06 AM

I'd like to talk a little about my family, for those of you who know me, but yet don't know me. (nonsense)

Dad (60 I think), mom (59), bro (32) and bro (20).

Francis, Agnes, Norman, Nicholas.

And me!

Dad was a nice man, turned bad, turned really bad, turned extremely bad. I recalled him playing the see-saw with me when I was still a toddler? Then he became this man whom everyone hated. A womanizing drunkard. Well I still pretty much hate him. Period.

Mom's the woman. Was. =/ She loves me. Even though most of the time I saw her as a biased mom cause of my bro's achievements in the past. Staying strong despite dad's nonsense. It's all thanks to her I'm me now. (Like really really independent. =/)

Big bro? He's cool. When I was young he used to make me think I'm supergirl. And with all the hip stuff. Though sometimes the things he say I find it too good to believe, he's changing for the better now.

Thats all. No wait that guy.

2nd bro. Useless bum. Abandons mom for useless girlfriend. Puts up false hope for mom. Fails to score for A Levels twice. In army. Hardly returns to see mom. KIA. (Killed in Action)

Yup. And me!

Amazing girl. Does her own chores and earns her own money. Accepts nothing from parents. (: Well that's cause they have nothing to give =/ Pretty much lives alone in a dump. With the dad occasionally popping out. Oh and, awesome grades too (x Despite failing her O level English, which was totally IMPOSSIBLE!

The age gap between my siblings were prolly cause I believe my parents almost divorced cause of my dad. Imagine if they did. Where'd I be? Who'd I be?

Are you guys happy I'm here?

nat*Rockin

Monday, July 28, 2008,11:16 PM

So I made a couple new friends. Thanks uh Rovi.

=/

I think it's kinda cool to state which date I first met a friend. So it was 26th July. There was...Denise, Lucas, Scott, Nicholas, Melanie, Ashraff, Russell, Genevieve (I had to ask him the names again). The party was awesome. What else to say? The word awesome kind of describes it all. Well, only thing was that there were no drinking games.

Happy birthday Rovi.

I realised, there's always those few friends and those short moments in your life when they abruptly jump in and play a big role and whoosh! they're off, you'll never hear from them again. No no no! I had enough of those friends. :(

I miss Gwen and all. And Chris I'm still sorry for turning you down so many times. (By the way, Chris is the only ex of mine who's cool about it and we're still awesome friends. I guess you don't really get much of this in Singapore, do you? Well that's cause he's one of a kind. Hope that answers your questions.) Sadly, even them who I thought would stay permanently have gradually grayed and turned away.

Noooo. I don't want tidal friends. I want a pond to myself, so the water won't ever pull back, like tides do!

nat*Rockin

Friday, July 25, 2008,12:49 AM

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

nat*Rockin

PD1 Panel Review 28 July
SE Mini Project Submission 31 July
FIT Written Test 6 Aug
SE Written Exam ???

:(

And None of them I have prepared for.

nat*Rockin

Thursday, July 24, 2008,10:27 PM

Someone should just tie me up on a leash.

!!

Old habits die hard. And yes, I've gotten all of them back. While some of you guys might detest, I'm sure Gwen's pretty happy. So am I gonna get what you promised me now girl? Where's Christopher (: Kidding........

Come on come on. Who wants to hold my leash?

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, July 23, 2008,6:43 PM

Almost did something awesome today.

Almost. =/

Kind of sad that I had to postpone meeting Chris for something that did not happen. :( I miss him so much. Hope to see you guys tomorrow anyways. Totally nostalgic when I recall we used to tickle each other's bellies, until bruises appear. Darn.

Really wish I was in the states. Singapore's such a boring country bounded by, rules.

=/

nat*Rockin

I need some excitement in my life.

Wanna break some rules?

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, July 22, 2008,10:57 PM

WHICH PERV SENT ME A NEGLIGEE!?!?

nat*Rockin

Monday, July 21, 2008,10:04 PM

I'm feeling emo and missing a whole lot of people now......... *not in order*

GWEN MEOW LOUISA RYAN joshua chris WEISHAN jacelyn suhailah joel brandon boony daryl kenrick hornsau daddy timlam swk leewx adam kuoloon hongda janson nengyi see ern sq tarmiz WEIEN arison ZHIYANG hongwei

:(

Just met up with Meow on Saturday. Realised I've missed so much of what's happening in her life. She's met up with Suhailah recently. And Louisa told me she met up with Weishan recently too.

LOOOUISAAAAAAAAA. INVITE MORE PPL ON AUG2 PLEEEEEEEASE.

I know why I'm so into friends now. I don't wanna be aloneeeeeeeeeeeee.

nat*Rockin

Sunday, July 20, 2008,11:29 PM

"It takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished"

nat*Rockin

CHRIS CHRIS CHRIS CHRIS

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN MY DARLING.

nat*Rockin

Saturday, July 19, 2008,4:54 PM

A little girl found a pretty shell by the shore..

She thought it was pretty and really liked it..

But then there was a chip on that shell

She puts it down in search of a perfect one..

But, no matter how hard she seeked

She couldn't find any..

And then she decided that the previous shell was good enough for her..

But it had been washed away by the tide..

And there she sat,

And wept..

nat*Rockin

Here's a pretty lame story.

Characters involved are: Mr Glove, Mr BBB, Mr Ugly, Mr A, Mr B, Dr D, Mr Rocker, Mr Liver, Mr Psycho, Mr Bang and Ms ?. (Real names shall not be used)

"So today Ms ? was chatting with Mr Liver online, and suddenly brought about the topic of Mr Glove, whom Ms ? did not know at first.

Mr Liver: what 's with that Mr BBB?
Ms ?: haha
Ms ?: no lah
Ms ?: he look like the Mr Conman guy
Mr Liver: hmm ok
Mr Liver: LOL
Ms ?: i tot they brothers lor
Ms ?: pai kia one
Mr Liver: ahhahahaa
Ms ?: tt day he beat someone up in toilet
Mr Liver: OO
Mr Liver: yesterday?
Ms ?: hmm
Mr Liver: i mean
Ms ?: yah
Mr Liver: err
Mr Liver: ya
Mr Liver: yesterday
Ms ?: u knw uh
Mr Liver: that guy guai lan la
Ms ?: who
Mr Liver: a lot pple dont like him
Ms ?: the victim uh
Mr Liver: Mr Glove
Ms ?: sibo?
Mr Liver: wear glove come sch
Mr Liver: think he siak
Ms ?: oh
Ms ?: haha
Ms ?: so u knw wat happen uh
Mr Liver: everytime he walk past my project room we sure disturb him one
Mr Liver: "WEAR GLOVE!!"
Mr Liver: all shout

Both of them continued laughing.

Mr Liver: but i find the guy kenna whack
Mr Liver: more guai lan
Ms ?: haha
Mr Liver: should whack one
Ms ?: i tink he askin for it
Mr Liver: he fight using fingernails
Ms ?: ...........
Ms ?: pussy uh
Mr Liver: LOL
Mr Liver: then we disturb him
Ms ?:
Mr Liver: "need to wear glove then can fight and win"
Mr Liver: he every fyp day will tiok shoot by my room mates
Ms ?: tt guy is how old one sia
Mr Liver: i think 19 bah
Mr Liver: act machiam jay zhou
Mr Liver: that time death note famous
Ms ?: =/
Mr Liver: he go buy lollipop eat in class
Ms ?: serious............
Mr Liver: and listen hp like L
Mr Liver: ya
Mr Liver: LOL
Ms ?: =/
Ms ?: GROSS
Mr Liver: super gross
Ms ?: wah lau sick fuck lol

Eventually Ms ? finds out that Mr Glove is her ex-classmate and takes pity. But she continues laughing at Mr Glove with Mr Liver adding fire.

Mr Liver: outcast kid
Ms ?: wah lau
Ms ?: but i tink he damn poor thing lor
Ms ?: he got wanna fight one meh
Mr Liver: he start taunting
Mr Liver: what i heard is
Mr Liver: he suddenly stand up during lecture
Ms ?: =/
Mr Liver: crack neck crack knuckles
Mr Liver: start to stare at 1 guy
Mr Liver: somehow they ended up in toilet fighting
Mr Liver: then 1 more guy bth and join in
Mr Liver: to whack the glove guy
Ms ?: bth?
Ms ?: haha
Ms ?: tink is taht Mr BBB guy lah
Ms ?: Mr A & Mr B in the same class
Ms ?: then i told them the Mr BBB guy quite cute
Ms ?: they told me 'NOOOOOOOOOO'

Ms ? was curious and wanted to know more, so she went to irritate others on her contact list.

Ms ?: ahh >.<
Dr D: but i overheard abit of wad happened.
Ms ?: hmm wat was it?
Dr D: guy that whack is Mr BBB
Dr D: kena whack is Mr Gloves
Dr D: Mr BBB laugh at Mr Gloves dunno wad
Dr D: Mr Gloves go sae thing.
Dr D: den they quarrel
Dr D: Mr BBB ask him go over
Ms ?: oh
Dr D: den Mr Gloves dumb
Dr D: go over den fight liao

The nosey parker Ms ? being herself, went to ask for one more person's opinions.

Mr Rocker: anyway
Mr Rocker: so waht about him?
Mr Rocker: oh you mean Mr Gloves??
Ms ?: yah
Mr Rocker: i heard
Mr Rocker: i feel like whacking those people up man
Mr Rocker: freaking hang them upside down using chain
Mr Rocker: and humiliating them infront of the school

Okay. That's about it. (for the online conversations part)

Couple of days ago, Ms ? was going goo goo over Mr BBB, until Mr Bang told her why Mr BBB was Mr BBB. Ms ? told Mr A & Mr B about him, and on the very day it happened, it happened! Ms ? was initially attracted to how bad Mr BBB was. But after the way Mr A & Mr B showed disappointment in Ms ?, she decided to give up. After all, Mr A & Mr B made Ms ? realise that friends are always there for her even though she made a mistake with Mr Psycho, whom both of them detested of her being with.

Ms ? thinks Mr Bang should read this and start laughing."

I like my story. Though maybe 99% of you won't get it in the end anyways, I think it's a story worth writing and saving. (x

nat*Rockin

Friday, July 18, 2008,11:56 PM

He's taken!

:(

Time to look for someone new.

nat*Rockin

Thursday, July 17, 2008,10:19 PM

Oh boyfriend, pat my head like a little girl!

Totally miss all of it. So much I even dream about it. =/ But its like when I start dreaming the guy would be without a head. DAMNIT IT'S SO FREAKY SOMETIMES. !!o.o Haha. I miss the time my ex(s) would lift me up like it's no big deal and swing me around like a kiddooo. YAAYYY. >.< Thinking about it makes me ecstatic (like really high).

I accept the fact that I've been seriously talking too much and thinking too much about the opposite sex recently. Can't help it! I'm too used to telling my best friends about how my boyfriend's been treating me, now that I've none, I don't know what else to talk about! I feel horrible too. Getting pret-ty old already, soon I won't have any force of attraction left. Seeing my buddies with their girls, going on so well, I get really left out. (Josiah with Angela, Joshua with Ilena, Daddy with YQ, YF & Hip with Ger =/, Jo with Liz) Even my dear Gwen !!!!!! has settled down with the fortunate Julius. (Julius right?) I miss you girl, when yoo comin back? And knowing my new friend Darrell who's been in a relationship for 5 years doesn't make things any better for me. Anyways Gwen if you read this, CALL ME. (: I wanna know what happened to Ryan. I miss him!

CAAAAAAALLLLLLLLL MEEEEEEEEEE!! ANYYYYYYYYONEEEEEEEEEE. I'm dead bored.

nat*Rockin

After having lunch today (like every other day) with the twins I realised,

It's tough to call them by their christian names. =/

I get super tongue tied and confused when they're together. Josh---iahhh! =/ Heh. So after all the confusion I decided, nahh, I'm going to go back to calling them by their chinese names. Anyway don't say I didn't thank you for buying food for me everytime.

THAAAAAAAANKS BRO (:

There was this fight in school anyway. =/ Dang. And he was involved, as said by the twins. Seriously, the more I look at him the more I think he looks like Roland. Even thought they might be brothers, but his surname isn't Luke lah sad. Character's like exactly the same! =/ Ugly knows him too. So maybe, just maybe, I'll forget about it.

Work in about an hour and I'm so tired! You guys should try this site play.typeracer.com. Kill some time and train some lazy fingers.

I seriously need to get involved with someone soon!

nat*Rockin

Wednesday, July 16, 2008,9:39 PM

An awesome day (:

I had initially planned to head to Sim Lim Tower (alone) and go down to the restaurant for dinner and a bit of research on my report.

BUT MY PLANS WERE RUINED, for something better. Haha.

Ended up hanging out with my awesome new friend (: Don't ask who, go read up! Anyways, I'm glad that I wasn't alone when I was looking for my components, which I didn't manage to find cause I had too little knowledge on it. We then headed over to MOS Burger (Bugis Junction) for lunch! The cheeseburger was awesome. Yay.

Ended up sharing like my deepest darkest secrets with Darrell, and I guessed its the same way around. Didn't turn out to be what I expected him to be. And ROARRR. STOP TEASING ME & THAT "" GUY. =/ Dang. I envy him alot cause he's been together with his girl for coming to 5 years already, and still deeply in love with each other.

O: awwwwwwwwww.

I didn't go to PP anyways. Kind of a good thing cause of how early they ended. 3 buffet and 4 ala carte customers??? What's with business these days.

nat*Rockin

Tuesday, July 15, 2008,11:32 PM

Thanks ah boy, but you can stop introducing me your lame friends. Smokers are a no go. (: And I know what kinda guy I want, and I kinda found him already, so...NO MORE PLEASE JANNY. AND STOP QUESTIONING ME.

*rants*

Anyways, work today was a BLAST. There were only 4 customers having ala carte and the last customer left at 8pm. Out of the hundreds of shifts I worked this is the first time I actually get to witness such patheticness.

Just met Lawrence downstairs. He's really really really really (to the power of ...........) very very helpful and pretty much everything nice. Hee. Lent me his wireless lan card that he claimed he didn't have use for but is still under subscription. That really is gonna help me a whole lot on my FYPPPPPPPP. (: And he's gonna send me his old reports too. (You know the word.) AWESOME. Really. (: (: It's just a pity he...smokes. Aww.

I'll be heading down to Sim Lim Tower (alone) tomorrow after school at 1pm. ): I'd be glad if someone can accompany me...........

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooo.

nat*Rockin

Yay. Made a new friend today. His name's Darrell.

He's someone I've been (kind of) working together with in FIT class, well cause he's always late and if the other side of the bench (where he's seated at) hasn't completed their work neither can my side. Yup.

The interesting part is, I FINALLY KNOW THAT GUY'S NAME.


(: That's awesome, and a good start.

But what's not is that it didn't occur to me that he might have a girlfriend already, after Janny reminded me. (Well THANKS ALOT =/ ) And right now I'm stating all the other possibilities that might happen, like for example: He might be gay.

Right now I'm ranting to Daddy about all this nonsense. And that I have to go to Sim Lim tomorrow again, ALONE.

)':

nat*Rockin

Today (tonight) is like Blog-all-you-want day.

I'm proud to tell the world that I know them. I HAVE to give credit to them for my FYP Project Design 1 report. Despite being only the first draft, the lecturers were pretty impressed with the amount of detail and effort I'd put in.

Yipeee.

Janny had put in some effort in helping me today too. (: When I get the chance, I'd definitely repay you guys. Esp Shupinini who had absolutely no knowledge (actually I wouldn't say absolutely) in the engineering field, but accompanied me all the way to ulu Sim Lim Tower to find my hardware, and bringing me to an awesome cafe!

It's called Ms Clarity Cafe or something the sort, has pretty awesome western dishes at a reasonable price. (:

Right now, I'm still craving for the Mumbo Jumbo! (dish in the middle)

Time to sleep.

nat*Rockin

Monday, July 14, 2008,11:35 PM

I would highly recommend that you read the review at this site : http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0425637/

(:

And all in all about Red Cliff, ZHUGE LIANG IS SO FUNNY.

(: (:

nat*Rockin

Here's a short my-point-of-view review for the recently released movie "Red Cliff".

Zhuge Liang is really funny (x

(Note: Major spoilers ahead! Don't continue on reading if you're intending to watch it)

I just can't stop recalling the scene where Zhuge Liang (Kaneshiro) enthusiastically fans his pigeons. Initially assuming that he was trying to get rid of them, I continued watching on and this is what happens. Zhou Yu questions him about what (the hell) he's doing, he replies, "I just bathed them, now I'm trying to dry them." I basically LOLed.

LOL. And that was not all.

Zhou Yu seemingly understood him and questioned again, "If you continue fanning them like this, won't they catch a cold?"

ROFLMAO. Zhuge Liang immediately withdrew his fan and began acting wise (his supposedly true self) again.

I simply love John Woo (and his scriptwriter) man.

More to come after I bathe!

nat*Rockin